I'll keep this paragraph short and simple . Basically I have been strongly questioning my sexuality. Previously I have had two relationships with females. Over the past 6 months or so i have been significantly more attracted to males; both in real life as well as via watching porn. I have had strong fantasy's over being intimate with a man on numerous occasions, and have massively lost attraction to the female body. Two weeks back I went round a random dudes house to try things; although it ended badly i was too nervous! That made me question myself even further which is making me quite depressed. I feel as if i have a mental battle between what society typically wants u to be, aka straight, and what i actually feel when i look at men. Any help would be fantastic, thanks .
First things first. The only person who can know for sure what your sexuality is would be you. I can't decide your sexuality for you, ya know? If you feel such a strong sexual attraction to men, than you need to think about whether or not that feels right to you. I don't mean about whether it feels right to society, but if that feels like it's genuinely you. Take the time and really explore yourself. If you are, don't let the discourage you. Society can be really crummy, but people only have as much power over your state of hapiness as you give them. Don't let other people drag you down, because bi, straight, or gay you're amazing and deserve to be happy As to your nerves with this experience...just take things one step at a time. Don't try to jump right in, take things a step at a time and figure out where you are most comfortable.
I kind of understand what your going through. Usually in real life I tend to be more sexually attracted to males. In fantasies in porn however I tend to be just as sexually attracted to women than men. I can get turned on by fantasizing about having sex with a woman and get really turned on by it. I referred to myself as gay for many years but I technically believe I am bi. You may also be very sexually fluid which usually encompasses bisexuality.
I'm going through a similar situation, but I'm going to try to give decent advice. Something that's helped me so far is picturing yourself actually living a life with a partner of the same sex. You said you were attracted to males sexually, but would you actually consider being in a steady relationship with one? I hope I helped you at least a little bit EDIT: Sorry if I'm making a few mistakes with terminology and stuff. I'm still kind of learning about different sexualities, so I might get a few things wrong.
