Hi folks, I'm an 18 year guy, currently a student at university. I've only ever been with girls and I consider myself a straight guy. I've never seen guys in an attractive way, like I don't look at them and think "oh he's so hot" whereas I would for females. However, I find myself having these gay thoughts, I want to be fucked, I wanted to suck a guy and give a handjob. I have watched gay porn in the past and the sexual activity interests me. I have only ever done things with girls. It feels right with girls because I have deep attractions and deep connections with them. With guys, I don't find them attractive or have this connection, I guess I just like their lower body areas :L I always said to myself that I'd experiment and try it out with a guy before I got into a serious relationship with a female, because I wanted to live the fantasy incase I never got the chance to. Recently I happened to be given an offer from a college guy to go to his room and suck him and kiss him. Now I don't find the guy attractive and I don't see anything, but the idea of sucking his cock really turns me on. I agreed but the night before I turned it down because I was scared of how I'd feel regret as soon as I came and I'd realise what I'd done and that I'd probably feel guilt for doing it, snd id never be able to change the fact that i did it because after I cum to gay porn this is how I feel. I am currently texting a few girls that I really like, and I feel I could eventually end up Dating 1 of them soon. Should I go out and experiment, or should I keep it a fantasy and forget about it? I feel like I could regret it in the future
It would seem that you have enough interest to give it a go and see whether you like it or not. Whats the worse that can happen, you decide its not for you but you have satisfied your curiosity; no guilt or regret needed as life is about trying new experiences. As well, you might find yourself pleasantly surprised having enjoy it. And if that is the case, then you have realized a side of you that previously lacked transparency. And aren't we all on a journey of self realization? If you do enjoy it, no need to worry about what comes next, just take it a step at a time.
