Ok so I'm turning 18 in a couple weeks and for a while now I've been really confused on if I'm actually straight like I've always believed. I've only ever been involved with men and I'm still currently in love with one. I develop a lot of feelings for men romantically and sexually, so I know for a fact I cannot be a lesbian. But I'm also confused because boobs just turn me on. Everything about them turns me on, from when I was a little kid because my first porn or anything sexual that I saw was a woman's boobs and I just always have been fascinated by it. I get curious about how it would feel to have Sex with a girl but I truly don't believe I'd ever do it. I could never eat out a girl or anything but idk and I'd definitely never be involved romantically with one, so what does this mean? I feel like I'm only turned on by the porn and that's different than in real life but I'm really confused so any help will be great.
To me, it sounds like you are heteroflexible. It basically means 'straight with a few exceptions'. But I can't really label you; only you can do that. You'll figure it out, trust me (*hug*)
There are a few possibilities: 1) You are Bi-curious, (or hetero-flexible as the above poster mentioned.) It's normal to want to explore your orientation and entertain thoughts you normally wouldn't. It doesn't mean to want to follow through on them 2) Women are aesthetically pleasing to you. This partly brought on society, what with its constant sexualization of the female body. But, that being said, I too find women's bodies appealing, they look nice. Don't think too much about it, it doesn't /really/ say anything about your orientation. If you cannot find yourself being sexually/romantically attracted to a woman, (but you can be to a man) then you're probably straight. This may change over time; you may find that other labels suit you, maybe you haven't found the right woman yet. etc. Then again, it may not. Don't stress, in the end, love who you want to love and call it a day.. ;u;
I think you have a reasonable insight into your own feelings about this, so I'm not going to post an excessively long response when it isn't needed. You recognise the difference between the visual/sexual stimulation that porn offers and your true feelings and that's a positive thing, because some people really struggle to make the separation. You also know that you are not inclined towards an intimate relationship with the same sex, so where does it leave you? In all honesty, I think the term "open minded" is perfectly reasonable. It's better to avoid new labels if they are not necessary, because rather than bringing clarity they often add to confusion. It seems to me that you are predominantly straight, just like I am predominantly gay and actually, that's good enough (you are probably no different to 90% of the population). Sure, you may have a degree of curiousity about the same sex, but it doesn't sound like something that will shatter your world. You are facing up to the feelings and taking ownership of them and that's actually a really good and healthy thing to do. All credit to you for that. Many people are content to deny and suppress feelings that are perfectly natural and reasonable.
