Sorry for the obsessive number of posts about this, but I just can't live a happy and normal life unless I know what I am. I can't think about anything else. I know I have an attraction to boys, but I don't know if my somewhat attraction to girls means i'm bicurious, bisexual, straight with an open mind, or just going through a phase?! It all started when I watched a movie when I was like 8 and saw boobs for the first time, that's the first time I ever saw anything sexual. Ever. And ever since then, i'd been turned on by naked women online and stuff like through porn. That's all it really was, and I just thought it was normal I mean at first I thought I was weird for watching porn in the first place because I didn't think any girl watched porn but I know that's false now. And all it ever has been was fantasy, but then one day I like pretended to be having sex with a girl when I was watching porn, which was the first time I ever did that... and after that I thought I was a lesbian but like that's impossible?? (because of my attraction to boys) Now, I feel like I will develop a crush on EVERY girl I meet, and i'm afraid i'm gonna get turned on if I, say walk in on one of my friend's changing and i'm so confused. Does it sound like i'm bi? Straight? I know only I can know but if I could hear your input, I might stop obsessing. Thank you.
Could you see yourself dating another girl? Could you see yourself having sex with another girl? What about with a guy (for both questions)? These questions might help. To me, it sounds like you might be bi, or maybe heteromantic bisexual. I don't think you're going through a phase because you say this has been happening since you were 8. I'm sure you will figure it out. Until then, try not to worry so much because it will happen. You will piece together this complicated, awesome puzzle piece that is you. And it will be amazing. (*hug*)
