Shocked and Confused

Porn is not a good indicator of sexuality, and I would not rely on it. It's sexual, it's usually exciting, and it's perfectly normal for someone's preference in porn to not match up with their actual sexuality. Don't think about that part too much.

Sexuality is, however, who you're attracted to. Would you want a sexual/romantic relationship with another man? Have you felt sexual or romantic desire for another man before, and if given the chance would you pursue it? Who do you want see yourself with in the future? These are some questions you can ask yourself, but I wouldn't beat myself up over the porn- focus less on that, more on your orientation, your attractions, who you want to be in a relationship with.

 

At the moment yes, I think I'm probably bisexual.

It's a bit complicated how I realized this, especially since most of my time spent questioning my sexuality was when I thought I was 100%, no doubts in between, a cis girl. Not the case anymore, but I'll tell you a bit more about it.
I knew I was attracted to women. I had crushes on them before, was in love with a girl before, wanted a relationship with one, felt sexual attraction/wanted to have sex with women, and ultimately could see myself marrying and ending up with a woman. I struggled with the whole, am I bisexual or am I a lesbian debate. Turns out I was really looking in the wrong direction. As for men, the attractions are a bit more iffy, but I can't deny I've had crushes, albeit less intense, on some guys before-though I spent a long time wondering what my feelings for them really were- and I can't say I haven't felt any attraction towards them. Although I'm less certain with my attraction towards men than women and whatnot, I can see myself dating and sleeping with one too. We'll see how that goes and if experience tells me any different as time goes on, but I'm okay in where I am now.
I found out by thinking a lot about who I would want to have sex with and be in a genuine, committed relationship with- dating and caring for each other, even went as far as wondering about who I would want to marry and settle down with. I did experiment with sexual fantasies as well, but I never forced myself to test out any attractions, I just let myself explore naturally if I felt like it. Any anxiety or pressure behind it ultimately ended up being pretty unhealthy mentally for me. I just did what I wanted to do and let myself feel things naturally. I read a lot of LGBT+ books and watched a lot of LGBT+ TV shows to see how I felt, but ultimately it was a lot less about the porn and pure sex, a lot more about an intrinsic feeling and attraction. Like I said, it's hard to narrow down my entire process into one go, but there you go.

As for your situation, you can't suddenly become gay. You won't suddenly develop attraction for men out of nowhere simply because you orgasmed to gay porn, unless that attraction was already part of your disposition initially. You can figure out you might be attracted to men, but it doesn't mean you turned gay or turned bi. You're just figuring yourself out. That's okay. BUT in doing so, do it healthily. Don't try to "test yourself"- I did that a lot too, and it messed a lot with my head, because there was the anxiety and the stress and it didn't do me any good- ultimately in the beginning I was focusing less on what I wanted, who I wanted to be with, more on a panicked "am I this? Am I that? How do I know? But what if-?" There's no need to keep obsessing over "am I gay?" by watching gay porn and seeing if you can masturbate to it. Don't rely on porn. It isn't a good indicator. And just because you orgasmed to porn, it doesn't mean you feel sexual attraction to men, or at least this is not the healthiest way to figure it out. Don't feel guilty either. If you are attracted to men, there is nothing wrong with that. It's normal and it's natural. I'm not saying you're gay, or bi, or straight. I can't say for you. If you really want to explore your sexuality, focus less on the porn. Focus more on your attractions and who you want to be with, your feelings towards romance/sex, whether you want to or desire to be with a guy and see yourself with one long term, and maybe past feelings as well. Give it time and don't pressure yourself to have to prove anything to yourself, let the feelings come naturally if they do, and don't worry over the porn too much.