Hey, well, for the last i dont know 8 months or something like that, from time to time i like to watch gay porn. Despite that i've never doubted about my sexuality until the last 2 months because i been suffering from drugs induced anxiety (lsd). My anxiety is better know its almost non-existant but the doubts you have while you were anxious remains, and this one is not the exeption. I do like straight porn. I cant see myself having romantic emotions towards a man. I just get exited by the idea of being with a man, not the kisses and stuff, just the oral sex and sometimes the penetration and the dick. It does seems to come to my mind when i am really exited. Most of the times i cant even finish to it. Not because i say like "oh its wrong!" it just stop "doing it" for me. I remembered that i first started to masturbate with my cutest friends (woman), then after some years of that, i needed like something else to exite me (only in the beginning) so i started thinking in some ugly girls from my classroom wich i would never fuck but i still find it hot in the moment. Just as the same as with the gay porn i started thinking in my ugly friends but then when i was close to the orgasm i thought in my hottest friends. Same happens with the gay porn Sometimes i start with it then i go to an ugly woman and then i go to heterosexual porn. I dont know if this is just a fantasy or something else. I know sometimes things like this are just a stereotype, But i also never showed "weird" behaviours in my childhood. I played football or soccer as you call it, loved sports, play with the "typical" boy-toys (cars, action figures, etc) felt more related to my gender (had man friends) spitted on the floor (i know i was weird lol), played fighting games and typical "boy stuff" and other stuff like that. I am a 19 years old virgin and i been in love i one or two times with girls from my school, but i am too shy. When i was a kid i told my grandma that when i saw girls in underwear or naked my dick grow larger and harder (i know.. i know) i dont really get exited from men while im on the streets, just while im fantasizing or watching porn to masturbate. What am i?? :help:
Well, it's possible to be sexually attracted to a gender, but not romantically. If you think you are bi, you may be. You could be bi with a female preference, though I can't know for sure since I'm not in your head. Remember that it's fine to have the attractions you have no matter the gender. Sometimes it's hard to really pinpoint and label things and that's okay, too.