So a long time ago i watched lesbian porn before i got my period. I feel like that triggered something but also i have like i've done lesbian things (not like sex), I'm into boys and always have but i feel more aroused to girls... I call myself bisexual because I don't feel like if I say I'm gay that would be like too drastic to my case and I never see myself with spending the rest of my life with a girl. I don't feel like i'm homoflexible either because i'm not emotionally and mentally attracted to a girl. I'm only attracted to boys mentally and emotionally, yes i'd have sex with guy too. None gave me suicidal thoughts or anxiety but sometimes when I thought I was gay I was just like "No, Too drastic" and if i focus on it too much, i'd probably freak out but its rare. My mom thinks that the internet has influenced this on me but I doubt it i'm a hot mess i'm sorry if i sound insane
