Is it real? I think I have it. Ever since I realized I enjoyed gay porn but don't find men attractive I've been obsessing about whether or not I'm gay. I'll test myself to see if I find men attractive, if I would enjoy sex with them etc. It's got to the point where I'll question the way I speak or sit or something and if it's at all feminine (yes I know, not all gay people are feminine) I'll think that it's another reason why I must be gay. I've also been questioning whether or not I find women attractive, even though I have for the last 18 years of my life. I still think I'm gay when there's no attraction to men. Is HOCD a real thing? I've been diagnosed with OCD alone but a lot of people say HOCD isn't a real thing. I don't want to carry on believing that I may be straight but with HOCD when in fact I'm actually just gay or bi.
Don't feel the need to label yourself based off of stereotypes bro. Straight people could still read gay porn and be turned on by it. A lot of people are, tbh. The key point is, don't rush yourself, and don't rush to diagnose yourself. You love who you love. Love doesn't need labels, remember that. You really just have to figure things out as they come. See what feels right.
No, but I've been told I need it by other people I've asked on other forums lol. Pretty sure I need help...
HOCD as a standalone condition is not real, any more than "locking locks OCD" or "flipping light switches OCD." However, if you've been diagnosed with OCD, it is not uncommon for people with OCD to have, as one of the obsessive thoughts they experience, an obsessive concern about your sexual orientation. I'm a little confused though: You said you've been diagnosed, but you haven't had counseling. So from whom did you get the diagnosis?
I was diagnosed recently by my doctor. I just haven't had any counseling yet though. Also do you think I'm gay or bi and in denial? Or am I obsessing too much over it? I tell myself that porn's not a good indicator of orientation, but it must have some meaning.