Hi guys, hope you're all having a great day It's been almost 2 years I guess that I've been questioning my sexuality, and for the last couple of months I have definitly accepted the fact that I am attracted to girls, I'm still kind of attracted to guys but not as much as I am to girls. I don't know if I'm bi or not, but right now I just feel like lesbian is something more appealing to me. But I don't feel that it's the most important thing to figure out right now. I've had a couple of crushes on girls from school and even from the supermarket (some of them even gay/bi I think), but I didn't knew them. A couple of weeks ago, I kissed a guy at a party while I was a little bit drunk. I remember thinking while we were kissing "What the hell am I doing ? That's not who I am." and it was not bad, I just didn't feel like it was what I wanted. Maybe it wasn't the right guy, and I couldn't help thinking "what if it was a girl that I was kissing?". Now, I still don't know for sure. I wish I could kiss a girl to see what it feels like but I can't just kiss someone out of the blue. I want to be able to live without having to constantly asking myself if I should tell my parents and my friends or not, I don't want to hide my feelings. My friends sometimes ask me if I have a crush or if I am interested in someone but I always tell them "Nah, still no one" when I want to say "Well, actually, I saw this really cute girl,blablaba". But I never do, because it's easier and maybe because I'm scared too, and don't know how to tell them. There's a gay community who meets every thursday near where I live but I don't know if I should go or not. It would be great, to meet new people and find out about people's experiences other than online. Sorry if it's a bit messy, I tried to make it understandable. If you have any advice, I'll take them. Thank you for reading this
Omg this sounds SO much like me a few months ago! I spent this entire year questioning my sexuality, and at some point I came to the conclusion that I was gay. I started coming out to a few friends, but then I happened to develop feelings for a guy. This caused me a lot of stress because I really wanted to have a relationship with him, but I felt I was physically more attracted to girls, so I didn't know what to do. A few weeks ago I decided that right now I don't care about what I am, I'm still more attracted to girls but now I'm happy with this guy and I'll just see how it goes. I suggest you give yourself some time to explore your feelings toward both genders, without limiting yourself with a label. Eventually, you'll figure out who you are
