Okay where to start.. When I was in 6th grade I stayed home from school, because I had feelings or was attracted to guys as well as women. I was so scared that I was gay, I was sick to my stomach about it. But before 6th grade I only remembered crushing on girls and feeling all giddy and warm when I looked at a female. After my one to two week break from school of over thinking about it. I told my mom about it and she said that she thought she was lesbian until she tried, and she didn't like it, and that she'd love me no matter what. After that all my feelings for guys went away. And I went with women and never really gave it a thought. That was 5 years ago? I eventually accepted the fact that gay porn turned me on as much as straight porn but I only watched it sometimes, and looked at men as said yeah they are attractive or I want to look like them or have that body. (Horrible self image issues). I met this girl named Summer and I fell in love with her, and we dated for 3 years. And I did have very meaningful sex with her and we did have a lot of it. But after so much sex it just wasn't working for me anymore. And towards the end I broke up with her even though I still loved her, she changed. Fast forward 8 months I've been with 3 other women, and currently dating somebody new. Who I am sure I fell in love with.. I can't even say it to her without tearing up and being happy with her. But a couple of days ago the same that happened to me in 6th grade is happening again. But now women aren't turning me on anymore and gay porn seems to be what gets me, when I look at guys I sometimes get butterflies. Straight porn stopped being awesome as it once was (and I was a porn addict lmao). Women aren't turning me on as of recently, I feel gayer than I did a couple of weeks ago. But yesterday I touched my girlfriends boobs(after not seeing her for 3 weeks cause college.) I got hard instantly, touched her vagina and got hard instantly. We had sex but I didn't cum like I did a couple of weeks ago and I came pretty fast as her whole body turned me on, now it doesn't like it did a few weeks ago. I watched more gay porn and it didn't turn me on like it did a few days ago, I actually had to play with myself to even get hard but when I did I came pretty quickly. I'm 17 and more confused than I ever have been in my life before.. Sometimes I'll tell myself i'm gay and then it doesn't feel right, sometimes it does. Sometimes I'll tell myself i'm bisexual and it feels right, sometimes it doesn't. Anyone want to help me here. . I did admit to my girlfriend I am bi, and one other person online. Other than that nobody knows and my mom assumed otherwise because I never brought it up and my feelings went away until recently, and no I have never wanted a romantic relationship with a man but i'm willing to try sexually.
Bro, you are still young, don't feel a need to label yourself already. Society will do that for you. Just be yourself do what feels right and let that be it. If you don't feel right calling yourself gay or bi then don't. If you feel right loving women and men, then do it.
I think maybe you should just stop watching all types of porn and see how things go? Maybe it is confusing your brain. I don't really know, I have never watched porn other than with other people for a laugh but seeing things you normally wouldn't see until you experience them yourself must have some sort of effect.
It is difficult to say and I'm sorry you have to go through this. I agree with the others on this thread in that you are still pretty young and have time to experiment and work out what you like. Keep in mind that sexuality is often seen as something quite fluid and can change overtime, so you may have different preferences at different times in your life. If you feel this confusion is causing harm to you or people you're in relationships with you may want to seek counselling or something. Otherwise just keep in mind that you still have time to figure this out and it's okay to not know who you are just yet. Don't focus on the labels so much - you do you and see what happens.
