Ever since I realised I am a lesbian I've found myself wanting to dress really butch and trying to change my mannerisms, behaviour and voice to be more masculine. As a kid I always was very feminine, loved everything pink, loved dressing up as a princess and fairy etc. Then I got into my teens and I was the same, but as I got around 15/16 I realised I hated wearing makeup and I felt uglier with it on, I sort of hated getting dressed up in a dress and heels even though I had always loved the idea of it I'm a very messy person, unlike the rest of my family - my brother who is gay is very neat and feminine, my sister is the same and they take after my mother, however I'm much like my father in a lot of ways. Lately I'm surrounded by girls, even family and whenever they talk about getting their nails done and their hair and jewellery I find no interest... I used to however love my nails long and painting them I don't know if this change is genuine and who I am or I have this crazy idea that in order to be a lesbian I need to be butch and masculine so girls will like me But the only girls I like are butch girls, I just find it so sexy when a girl is really masculine and sporty etc. I can find femininity attractive too however I like a mixture e.g when a girl is a massive tomboy and quite manly but she can still dress up in heels and a dress and look equally as attractive. Has anyone else after figuring they were gay started to dress different? e.g if you were a guy did you start becoming more feminine and vice versa? I wish I had a masculine figure, a nice jawline and manly hands but I have a feminine body and structure but the past six months I've only ever wanted to dress like a tomboy and my mum even asked me what's caused this phase and I just told her I liked it. Sometimes I find myself doing really girly things and behaving girly and get upset at myself and try to act a different way because I just wish I was the stereotypical butch lesbian Any advice, ideas or suggestions would be much appreciated! Aswell as personal experience
Honestly, I think you should just wear what you want to wear. My orientation didn't change my clothing style at all really. I just don't believe in conforming to stereotypes either. Just wear whatever makes you comfortable.
