Before I began questioning my gender, I was sure of liking boys. Since being a part of the LGBTQ community, I've learned a lot about gender and sexuality and am starting to question pretty much everything related to it. See, the thing is. I always check boys out. But kissing/cuddling them? No way. I mean I have done it, but I've never felt quite comfortable with it. And being in a relationship with them just makes me feel weird and awkward With girls it's kind of the other way around. I never check girls out. Most girls (The stereotypical white girly girls) are kind of, I don't want to sound mean, repellent to me. I'm not saying they are bad people, they just don't make me feel like I would want to spent a lot of time with. However with girls that are a bit different, I don't feel turned on, but I do think about being in a relationship with them. If I imagine myself ad a girl being with another girl it makes me uncomfortable. However me being a guy with a girl is kind of an okay thing to think of. (I do feel the same way about having a relationship with a guy though and whenever I try that out, I don't like it) I have never been in a relationship with a girl, but I do imagine to have the same uncomfortable feeling I have while being with a boy. I have kind of this blurry feeling about everything. I feel like both directions (as in liking girls or boys) are kind of okay but also not. The same thing is with my gender. I feel like living as a guy would be awesome but being female does have its perks. I like the idea of physically being with someone so I don't think I am asexual. But am I aromantic?
