I am feeling a little bit confused and if you could please give me some insides would be great. I came out to my self last year, and up to now I had few hook ups and finally I had sex, I only had sex with two guys and was pretty good I felt pretty confortable with a guy. Now I have a strange feeling, I am feeling "peaceful" like I found my self but at the same time I am feeling a little bit counfused, somentimes I question my self if I am realy GAY. WTF I am doing, since my teens I have fantasies about men I jerk off only for guys and I look more at guys than girls. Does anyone have this kind of "feeling" ? Am I normal ? ::lol::lol::lol: By the way I am 31 THX SO MUCH
Do you mean "peaceful" as in accepting? Have you found that you feel more accepting of yourself? I mean, right now, I'm pretty chill with being a lesbian, but maybe that's because I never really "came out to myself." One day I was just at a party and I looked around and was like, "man, I'm the only girl in here not obsessing over guys." That being said though, I understand your back-and-forth between feeling peaceful and completely doubting your sexuality. I did that for the better half of last year. I've found that it's easier (though easier said than done) to just step back and let things happen. I used to look at every person I passed, male or female, and ask myself if I could find myself attracted to them. It was tiring and stressful and in hindsight a little creepy, and eventually I just sort of stopped. I left my questioning there, as it was, and until I find myself doing something or feeling something that "contradicts" my otherwise gay identity, I'm just going to stick to "lesbian." Questioning is a healthy and normal thing to do, don't get me wrong, but investing too much time in it can become exhausting. More power to your peaceful vibe; it sounds like it puts you in a pretty positive place.
Hello cromulent thx so much for your help. Not only accepting but I am not anxious as I used to be, I am also pretty chill being gay. I think this is way I am feeling so "peaceful". I will try and I am trying to go with the flow and let the things happen, my bigest problem is I am the kind of person who likes to make plan so I think I need to change and try not making so many plans and as I said go more with the flow ! Also I will stop questioning I just don't know what to say if some one asks me if I like Man or Woman, I don't know if I said I am BI or Gay.. ..... OHHH GOSH I think I went back to the questioning !! KKKKKK Again thx so much !
