Hey everyone, first time poster and so, so erm, 16M, Not sure if gay/bi/hetero such and such. Im about to go very in depth, I want a full opinion, no silly stuff. Around 10-12 years of age I knew what being gay/bi/straight was, Back then, I was accidentally introduced into the world of porn. I use to only jack off to straight porn, you know, the very vanilla stuff. I did that up until I was 14. Yes, for about 4 years straight I jacked off to straight vanilla porn. At one stage, It got, I guess, boring. Later on, I discovered gay porn, it didnt excite me initially but instead got me curious as to what it was. Around 14-16, I jacked off to both straight and gay porn. Now im telling you this because I feel like watching all this porn has, i guess, morphed my way of thinking and my sexual orientation. Now, that im 16, Ive watched enough porn to start question what my sexual orientation is. The first time I tested this was just during casual outings with friends. While waiting, I would look at both guys and girls. I would look at girls, not getting "aroused" initially, but I did compliment them on their hotness, cuteness and so on. More specifically the face and curves, I just couldnt stop looking!, haha. However, for guys, it was purely the face, not complementing, wow he is hot, but more like he is good looking. However, I have never crushed on a guy nor have I gotten hard. The only times I can remember getting hard with a girl is when we were laughing and we just really clicked, and this other girl who is my friends friend, we went out together to the movies and I just got hard under the table just looking at her Further on, I feel like gay porn gets me harder faster than straight porn, I cant look at a girl naked by herself and get hard, I need some sort of stimulation, but with guys, I can look at a photo of a guy naked, muscled and all that type of the stuff, the more 'supersexual' sort of thing and get hard. Now with fantasies, the most straightest fantasy I have (and love) is eating a girl out, I love seeing their reactions, something about it is such a turn on, squirting, the spasms, hngg. With guys, I feel like its just the top getting satisfaction during the sex from the bottom. i just, Idk, some days I want gay porn some days I want straight porn and i just dont know anymore. I really want someone opinion on this, I would feel comfortable knowing im bi/bicurious, but being 100% gay wouldnt be comfortable to me because I just dont know the lifestyle, but hey, times are changing cheers, snorlax(!)
Reading this I can tell you that I'm pretty sure you're not gay. Fantasizing about licking a girl, getting aroused just looking at one... these things don't sound very homosexual to me. I think it's not unusual to get aroused by gay porn even if you're straight. I've heard before that straight girls might enjoy lesbian porn too. That's because there's kind of a focus on touching the parts that you have as well, so your body can relate to that and gets horny, I suppose. The thing that confuses me the most is that you could look at an attractive guy and get hard cause that doesn't really fit in with the rest you said. But, being interested or aroused by somebody of the same sex doesn't automatically make you gay. There's not just black and white; Plus you're only 16, hormones and stuff. You might just be bicurious, imo
Porn is a bit separate category. Just looking at aroused people/people doing arouring stuff to other people can get you aroused via identification. I can't easily deduce anything. But my guess is that if a person can get you aroused on their own, when you just look, that's attraction. So it seems you're attracted to girls. The thing for you to work out is whether it is they guy in the sexy pose or identification with him that arouses you.
