I am confused about my sexuality. I have always been very attracted to women and have had many relationships with them; I was married for 10 years but now divorced. From age 12 - 19, I was sexually active with 3 different men; one of them only once. After 19, I have not been with any men; only women. I don't find myself looking at men in public, my eye follows the women. However, I fantasize about men more and more when I masturbate (always the submissive). These fantasies rarely include kissing or faces and I rarely think about relationships with men. All of my experiences with men were purely sex; that's it. Recently (within the last 6 months), I started to picture a relationship with a guy (no one specific). It feels natural to take a more feminine role in the relationship and I am comforted by the thought of being cared for or protected. Now I am really confused. I used to think I just like gay sex but I am not gay, due to a lack of interest in anything beyond sex. I am not sure what all this means. Am I Bi, Gay, Straight but kinky, etc....?
If you've thought about and been with guys sexually, and your mind is opening up to the possibility of a more loving, romantic relationship with a man, it might be worth it to explore that side of you... maybe go on a few dates with men, or check out LGBT organizations near you, and go from there. You don't have to label yourself right away.
