Hi everyone, lately I've been questioning myself a lot about my orientation, ans I think I'm in the right place to ask for help cause honestly all this story make me sick ! I was never attracted to girls physically and in romantic way but always in a sexual way since I was a kid ! Kind of confusing no ? For me too ... I've tried what they said in some forum, tried to know more girls and kissed some but it didn't do anything for me, I felt nothing at all just quit disgusted( I'm sorry don't want to offend anyone) , it was not what I was feeling with boys , never had a crush on a girl too but watching porn confused me a lot ! It's like the perfect humain for me is a boy with really many features (like beard,n fond of boyish girls too ) and boobs ! i did that stupid kinsey scalpe test which was as confused as I am ! Anyone have been here ? What do you think I am ? Some kind of bisexual heteromantic ? Was all that Women thing just a fantasy crush by reality ?
Hey Millix, Thanks for being courageous enough to post what you're going through. I can tell you are going through a rough time, and you're in the right place to explore all these feelings. So, it appears that you have put yourself out there, kissed a few guys, had some intimate contact, but ultimately you never felt satisfied. This isn't necessarily a sign that you are a lesbian or bisexual. On the one hand, it could just mean that you didn't have a strong connection with these guys, or that they weren't the best kissers, or a host of other reasons. However, on the other hand, it could suggest that your own orientation falls outside the 'traditional' heterosexual paradigm. This result has many potential outcomes. You could be gay, bisexual, asexual, heteroromantic but homosexual, and so on and so form. So, a potential solution is to continue to investigate. Why not try becoming intimate with women? Although this may only lead to more confusion, it will at least broaden your own understanding of your preferences. The positive thing is this: you seem to know what you like. You even had a short description of an ideal. Of course, your ideal isn't necessarily the most 'traditional,' but there are a set of traits that you have identified and desire. That's a big step. Now, you can go out and try to find that ideal. I just wanted to add another tip that has helped me: porn cannot tell you who you are. In other words, I always rely upon personal experiences and feelings over the porn that I watch.
Thank you for your advice ! I finally figured it out, I wandered out watching girls and boys walking and began to ask myself some questions like how many girls do you find beautiful ?there was none, how many men do you find awesome ? There was a lot ! How many girls did you find attractive or very beautiful in the past ? I fin harmy girls beautiful and how many guys ? A lot really, in fact I am miss-love-at-first-side. Do yo want to touch a girl ? No, i don't want to ! Are you ready to give up on men for women ? Then it hit me : NO WAY ! I dis have few relationship with guys ! And to be honest I was madly in love with my ex I stayed with him for 4 years, it ended last year and I would have died for him and if he come back to ,I will still die for him !
