Hi there. I've recently started coming to terms with my attraction to women. I definitely feel more sexual attraction towards women than towards men, but... As I'm still trying to fully figure out my sexuality, I am still a little bit confused about how I feel about men sometimes. I thought I felt little to no sexual attraction towards men, but this week, I actually masturbated and had an intense orgasm to the thought of a guy twice (it feels really weird to type this). During the first time this week I sporadically experienced some feeling of sexual interest in guys, so I looked up pictures of hot men and I eventually stuck with Zac Efron. The second time I tried to get off on women by watching porn and it kind of worked, but women weren't really doing it for me at that moment for some reason. So a bit later on that day I experienced some sporadic sexual interest in guys again (I actually searched for some gay porn lol) and that got me off way better. This confused me. I have been in love with men, and I notice them on the streets. So.. I am really curious if people who identify as gay, or as predominantly gay, have experienced some sort of opposite sex attraction as well! I wonder in particular if they've experienced the same random sexual attraction towards the opposite sex as I have experienced!
Yeah, I almost feel as if I need to identify as bi. I am more romantically attracted to men and really desire a relationship with one but every once in a while, I will see some random woman on the streets with a big butt or big boobs and I will almost get hard staring at her. I don't get hard just from staring at men so this really freaks me out about my sexuality since I have identified as gay most of my adult life. I don't know that you should necessarily base your attractions off of porn. Lots of people's true attraction doesn't match up to what they like in porn.
