Feels like I would like 'gay' sex but with the opposite sex

Hi Guys,

A brief overview that might be relevant:
I've been questioning for 15 months now. Been 99.9% certain I'm not straight for 14 months. Been 75% sure I'm bisexual for about 7-9 months now. Trouble is I've got very little real life experience. Was addicted to porn for years. Had multiple 'attempts' at very drunken one night stands with girls but essentially never been able to perform. Never been in a relationship. Never tried anything with a guy.

Feels like I would like 'gay' sex but with the opposite sex:
It feels like I would probably lose interest in a female partner if our sex life only involved standard vanilla stuff. It feels like that's something I could enjoy a bit on a one off, one night stand kind of situation but to sustain any interest I would probably need a partner who enjoyed far kinkier sex. But when I think about it a lot of the kinkier things I'm thinking of are things you would far more usually associate with gay sex. Not exclusively of course but the obvious example is anal, something inherently more associated with homosexual sex rather than heterosexual sex. A lot of the things I think I would really enjoy with a female fall within this category.

In contrast if I were with a male I imagine I would probably have an easier time sustaining attraction and satisfaction partaking in what would be considered quite vanilla stuff.

My current thinking is that this is all just the result of coming to grips with and understanding my bisexuality but I can't help but wonder if this is perhaps an indication that I am in fact homosexual and I'm clinging onto the thought that I might be heterosexual, all I have to do is find Miss perfect - a girl who is into all the things I'm into - a lot of which happen to be pretty gay.

There isn't much of a point to my post. I just like to write things down sometimes and any thoughts on the matter are welcomed? I'm always particularly eager to hear from any gay males who at one point thought they may be bisexual but I'm interest to hear from anybody.