I sometimes find guys attractive. Sometimes I find them so attractive I get curious about them. I just notice this weird problem whenever I try to kiss guys. It's like I'm getting repulsed by their hormones/smell/pheromones. Even though they're not ugly to me. I had a few dreams where I had enjoyable encounters with men. I'm still wondering if there's any guys like that in real life. Maybe the guys I tried to kiss were too unattractive, masculine or lacking in personal hygiene. How can I experient with guys without leading them on? Should I tell them I'm mostly asexual and curious?
