Ok I've post here before and was not sure what my orientation was, I'm almost sure I'm bi, but i've only had sex with men, even tho I didn't actually enjoyed any of those times, I don't know why I keep doing it with guys, I guess it's easier and not so romantically involved but I haven't enjoyed it. I had mostly oral sex, I've just tried anal sex bottom and top and the only thing I've enjoyed was having oral on my testicles and a rim job... I've enjoyed more the foreplay with my exgirlfriend than any experience I had woth guys so I'm kind of confused... For the record: I'm at the hospital having a rapid HIV test as stupidly enough, didn't had precaution while on my last encounter, so I'm pretty nervous right now but aside from that, it also troubles me that I don't know why I keep having casual sex even tho I do not seem to like it...
Tested Negative for hiv, gonna get tested again in 6 months as recommended from the doctor and also for stds, the other guy assured me he was clean even after having sex, he's divorced and he claims he's only been with his exwive, so Im trying to stay calm. Back to my orentation doubts, I don't know where I stand, I feel like I'm out of place, not totally gay, not that bi and not that str8, I've never been with a woman and I'd definitely like to try out sex with one, romantically I've always felt for them since I was a kid and my affection towards them translates into sexual affection too so it has really been difficult to me to manage my way into dating, I feel like I started my sexual life with men cause it was more easy and wanted to get it done to see if I actually liked it that much as I enjoy watching gay porn but I found that I do not like it that much
Maybe it the casual, impersonal sex you don't like? Maybe you'd like sex with a man in a relationship? Maybe you'd like sex with women? You could probably try both out.
I think so, I haven't seen myself in a relationship with a guy, maybe cause I'm afraid of dating one and getting "doomed" and not being able to date a girl later because of the stigma of "bisexual" men being gay in denial or not man enough etc.... I think generally speaking, being Bi is really hard for me, I feel like for people I might seem normal as I speak about the girls I'm into, etc. But I can't share the experiences I had with guys like the ones I told before, like it's my "bad secret" or I would like to feel free of making comments of guys I find attractive and girls without getting an stare... I don't know, I'd like to feel free
It seems to me that you've already made the decision to want to date women in the long run. Stigma aside, I believe there's always someone out there who would truly accept you for who you are and the rest doesn't really matter. I also think casual sexual encounters aren't a good indicator of who you really like because some people are turned off by it and you may be one of them. My advice to you is to look at the people you're attracted to and consider every aspect of your attraction, sexually, romantically, emotionally, intellectually, etc. You should do this free of the fear of how choosing to date any gender/sex would affect your life in a negative way--that's letting fear be the drive for your decision-making. I feel you might have a better understanding of your own sexuality this way.
Yes, I think finally after a few failed casual encounters I've come to the realization that "one night stands" "casual sex" or whatever you can call it, it's not for me. I'll try to keep me out of any situations like that again. And you're correct, it seems that I want to only date women, I hope I'd find the right woman for me that doesn't care if I'm bi or that I've been sexually involved with men.
