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Still confused

Discussion in 'Sexual Orientation' started by Stick123, Apr 22, 2016.

  1. Stick123

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    Sup

    I posted a few months ago about this.

    I'm a straight guy. I get this feeling around other guys sometimes. Like if I was talking with a guy and facing him, and we were standing close. I wouldnt be able to face directly towards him with my body. Its like I focus on my penis and feeling of attraction. Its like I have a magnet in my crotch that wants to pull my crotch towards theirs. So I have to turn not directly facing them to distract myself from this feeling and thoughts.

    If I'm talking with a girl I view myself as cooler than, I dont get this. I feel dominant and could stand directly towards her, with my legs apart, as if 'displaying' my availability to her, leading with my crotch, and I wouldn't feel awkward about it, I wouldn't feel tension down there. I could also just stand normally and not have thoughts about this at all.

    Pretty much with 99% of guys this happens. Its like the first thing I think of when I see a guy is this, how i cant stand confortably around them and have this feeling in my crotch and almost feel my crotch magnetized towards theirs.

    Its weird though, because I dont consider myself gay. I never had any same sex experiences, and I dont fantasize about having one or have sexual desires about guys the way I do with my female crushes.

    I almost want to tell my friends that im gay, because i know they sense this tension. i feel like if i was to tell them im gay they would be like, 'oh we knew and were waiting for you to tell us'. but then i feel like i would still have the feeling. and i dont think it would explain anything, it doesnt feel right.

    this is so strange. i literally feel like, ok i must like guys because of how i get uncomfortable around them and i proably act like a gay person would around straight guys, but then after i think that im like, wtf am i talking about i dont like guys and dont want to do anything sexual with them.

    its crazy, so crazy. if i take benzos or get really drunk i dont have this problem. otherwise if im chilling around guys i feel like im holding something in. holding something inside of me that wants to burst out through my penis. so strange. lol.

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    also. i said this happens around 99% of guys. the people who it doesnt happen around is guys who are obviously insecure about themselves. if i am confident around them then i dont get this reaction. instead ill be confident and ill see them being uncomfortable, and that will make me more comfortable, sadly. i think this may be a huge insecurity issue. idk. because it definitely does NOT happen around guys that are obviously more insecure than me and it happens way MORE around guys that i view are higher social status, more manly, more confident, etc.

    around gay guys - if they are attractive and have high social status and are confident, then i may have some of this feeling, but to a lesser extent. also, its weird but having this feeling wouldn't bother me, it might come briefly then go, and i wouldnt get stuck on it, i wouldnt care about it or anything. with straight guys its something that i cant let go in my head, or at least its really hard to
     
    #1 Stick123, Apr 22, 2016
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