I'm a reasonably feminine guy who is attracted to the female form and wants to be straight, but the idea of sex with a girl doesn't get me excited at all. I want to be the one receiving the penis. Everytime I think I might be gay I always remind myself that I find girls attractive and therefore I'm straight. I guess I'm just wondering where I should go from here?
You can find women pretty and not be sexuality attracted. You seem to be in some denial that you like guys. I've done that. "Can't think that, not gay" But, I am gay. And guys are hot. It may also be you are bi or something else. Sexuality is very complex Straight, gay, etc, are simplifications. Many gays are attracted to a few women and many straights are attracted to a few men. It seems it just happens. If you were to allow yourself to fantasize freely, would you be with a guy or woman? Or does it switch?
I believe I know how you feel. Like, I can be attracted to men and women, but I rarely want to sleep with them. Basically never, actually (with a person that I'm not in a relationship with, that is). Sexuality can be complicated, and you can find people attractive yet not be interested in having sex with them, it's okay!
