So my biggest fear about coming out isn't how people will react. Everyone I know that matters to me won't care, so it's not an issue there! My fear is coming out and then realizing I'm actually straight... I feel bad b/c I've already posted here twice, but I wanted to list out some things and then see if you think this is enough "proof" that I'm gay (I plan to label myself as queer, tho) *I've had two crushes on guys, but they were more emotional than physical. The first one lasted 3 weeks, and then I started questioning my sexuality for the first time. The second one lasted about 4 weeks or so but I was less obsessed. And then he got a girlfriend. I felt a little hurt for like 15 minutes or so, just b/c I had thought he liked me, then I got over it XD Tbh, I think I more just wanted to be their friends. * I've never been with a woman or had anything I acknowledged as a crush on a woman, unless a crush on a lesbian Youtuber counts XD *I feel really happy imagining my life with a woman, and I can't help but smile just thinking about it. It just feels right. *I only ever listen to female singers, except for a few songs. *Idk if that whole thing is true or not, but my ring finger does happen to be longer than my index finger XD lol. *I never got excited about "boy bands" or hot male celebrities. My best friend was obsessing over a one direction picture in a magazine once and I just shrugged, then she turned the page and I got super excited when I saw a pic of Zendaya XD *When I was seven, I remember wishing I was a boy so I could date girls because they are so much prettier. And I don't think these thoughts were inspired by the whole immature "boys vs. girls" stuff, b/c I have always been friends with guys. *I get super jealous of two women couples. *I've always felt more comfortable with women, and more drawn to them. *There have always been women who I've felt strong desires to be around, but nothing I acknowledged as a crush at the time. Although I did sometimes consider them "friend crushes". *I don't find men physically appealing, and the idea of spending my life with a man doesn't feel right. *I find tall and/or muscular men intimidating.
