Ok, well here it goes, 45 yr old married male who has crossdressed since I was 13. I have always questioned my gender to an extent. My wife knows nothing of this, and one thing I want to point out, I love her dearly. I have always had fantasies when I was dressed about men but never acted on it, fantasy is a fantasy...As I have grown older things have changed to some degree. The only woman I am attracted to is my wife and even with that, I have performance issues. When I look at an attractive woman, I want to be her or want to check out her clothes. Men, well I am very attracted to a certain type of men and not so much when they are outside those parameters. To perform with my wife I have to imagine I am the bottom sometimes as a woman and others as a man. I am attracted to one of my better friends and he enters my mind a lot. To achieve an orgasm with my wife, I have to have her on top and me eyes closed fantasy man in my mind. I have faked orgasms with my wife. I am lost, I know I have gender identity issues...I don't know about my sexuality, I would hate to break up what is a good marriage over my selfish ideas but I also feel I am missing being totally fulfilled sexually and possibly emotionally...I want to try on the shoe without telling my wife but I also know that's cheating.. My wife is totally opposed to the LGBT community as we have talked about it. Can anyone help me? Am I gay? Bi? R my fantasies best left as fantasies? Btw, dressed I am extremely passable, feel by just typing this a load has lifted off me Danielle
