well, I'm confused. I've friends in lgbt community but couldn't talk to them about this...so I'm writing here. (also, i grew up in homophobic environment so that could be the reason for not talking to people around me about this situation) for a start, i'm in a (almost) happy straight relationship for about 3 years. the problem is, we rarely have sex. for a moment i thought i'm asexual but it turned out i'm not... so, one thing led to another and i realized that's probably because i'm disgusted with penises. and i really am. and i don't know why. :icon_redf therefore, it's no wonder i prefer watching lesbian porn... on the other hand, i think i had a crush on girl (high school colleague) few years ago, but i've ignored it because i didn't understand why is my heart beating so fast when i talk to her, and why i have that kind of reaction on a girl...(homophobic environment). and that 'stages' came to me occasionally; one year I prefer my boyfriend, other years I'm more into girls...i really don't know. also, i'm not falling in love so easily, so it's harder for me to realize what i want and who i am. and yes, i've always thought it doesn't matter if i'm with female or male partner, because i like people for their personality, not so much for their look... to sum up, i guess I'm bisexual but just can't be sure... please know that any thoughts and comments about this are more than welcome!(*hug*) p.s. Kinsey scale = 3 (though I hardly believe in tests like that...)
