I am confused by my sexuality. Perhaps a little background can help you all help me figure out what is going on. My earliest attraction has been to a guy, and I've always been attracted to guys. However, I've had a couple of "crushes" on women too in the past. When I went through puberty, as my attractions became sexual, I noticed that I had very powerful arousal towards men. However, I did not realize that homosexuality existed back then, I only thought guys liked girls. Hence, I did not pay attention to the obvious signs that I liked guys. Since all I knew was that I had to like women, I started watching straight porn and masturbating to women. It always felt weird though. I was able to have erections and be aroused by women but I never was able to orgasm. Orgasm and ejaculation, as I'm sure many of you know, are often together but are two separate events. I could ejaculate to women, but never orgasm. Recently after I admitted to myself that I was gay, I obviously started thinking about guys and I had a whole different experience, which led me to believe that I never had an orgasm thinking about women. What confuses me now is if I am gay, how can I be aroused by a women? How could I have ever been attracted to a woman in the past? I am currently deeply deeply in love with another guy which only further augments my observation that I like guys. Thank you everyone for your help!
Hey. It's totally normal to be aroused by a sexual stimulus that isn't in line with your sexual orientation, especially when it is a very sexualised stimulus. That's your normal body reaction to the stimulus, but that stimulus doesn't completely fit with you cuz you're gay. That's why you have insufficient pleasure while thinking of women that leaves you unsatisfied. Haven't you heard of straight guys admitting they have enjoyed their gay experiences to an extent, or gay guys being able to perform with a woman ?
