I'm a gay man, no doubt about it. I finally came up with a theory about my teen / 20s / plus, years and how I justified sex with girls. Aside from "going along with the guys" and pretending to like this chick or that chick, sex with a girl was an alternative to masturbation. Plain and simple. After much reflection and journaling, I conclude I was never into the girl for emotional purposes.
That's a powerful insight. And I think coming to that understanding is awesome. I think a lot of people stay confused either because they don't want to admit to themselves that they're mostly/exclusively same-sex attracted, or because they don't want to deal with judgment from others. I'm glad this has become clear for you, and I think this insight may be helpful to others as well.
The post has many reasons. a) I wanted girls / women to know this. b) I also had sex with girl / women because thats what I was told to do. I wanted acceptance from friends. c) Stripping away decades of shame, my original post is pretty spot on.
