I am (male) 14 years old, and for most of my life I thought that I was straight. I really don't know why, because signs have been showing up for about 1 year or so that show otherwise. Well, anyway, it all started when I watched a top 10 video. The one I watched was top 10 YouTubers that came out as gay. The number 5 or something was Tyler Oakley. When I saw him, it really hit me hard (not a pun). He was so fabulous, I just loved it. He is the one of the first people, if not the first, that I have actually had a "crush" on. I still do now. Well, after watching his videos, he has a lot that talk about gay stuff. I don't really know what went through my head, but after awhile I was questioning whether I was straight. I eventually came to the conclusion that I am homoromantic heterosexual. Then, after a while, biromantic bisexual but heteroamorous. Well, pretty much it kept changing. I now kinda consider myself bisexual, but I don't know. IF I had to label myself, I would either say sexualy fluid or biromantic but homoamorous bisexual but heteroamorous. That is a mouthful. I would like to say that I am bisexual, but that really isn't true. For the most part, I don't get aroused by men. I do get aroused by women. I would love to go on a date or snuggle up and watch a movie with a cute boy, and I really wouldn't want to do anything but, well, you know what, with a woman. Besides the fact that, in simple terms, my body wants to reproduce with woman, I don't really have any other attraction to woman. That doesn't mean I don't have girls as friends. I am just talking about strictly attractions here. So, the point is that if i were to "come out", I wouldn't know what to say. My sexuality is changing constantly and I don't really know how to label it. It confuses me alot. I wish I could just say I were gay. I would LOVE to be gay. Everybody knows what that means, and all you have to say is "I'm gay", and everybody knows what that means. I don't really know how to explain what sexually fluid is to my family. And I sure don't want to explain homoromatic bisexual but heteroamorous to them. So, all in all. I went from thinking I was straight, to just liking guys romantically, to liking guys and girls both ways. I really don't know what to say. What should I label my sexuality as? Will it keep changing, and if it does will I EVER be able to say simple "Im gay"? (that would be amazing, I really hope that I turn completely gay, even though I don't think that is likely if even possible)
