So this is going to be quite a long post and I apologize Ever since I was in middle school, I knew that something was different. I looked at at least one guy in each class period and that continued all throughout high school and college. I started looking at porn in freshman year of high school and I always looked at explicit pictures of guys. However, it was not until freshman year of college that I realized that I was not sexually attracted to girls. I wanted to try to see if this started earlier than middle school. I read online that you can ask yourself questions and say the answer that first pops into your head. I tried that and I asked myself if I had a crush on anyone in first grade and my immediate answer is always "yes". Then I ask myself who was it and my first answer is always "Colter" I do the same thing for third grade and my answer is always "Niko" For fourth and fifth grade and my answer is "Zach" Sixth grade is "Matt' After thinking about this for a long time, I remembered these people but 6th grade is when I clearly remember my crushes on guys. My gut tells me I'm gay but for some reason I can't fully accept it. I have a boyfriend now who I'm emotionally attached to and I'm very happy and content with but for some reason I can't fully accept myself. How can I fully accept myself? Do you have any ideas?
