My first female crush was in 3rd grade. Ever since then I've forced myself to have crushes on guys, but I always knew in the back of my mind I really liked this one girl. This lasted for years. Early this year, I came to the conclusion that I was bisexual. I ended up coming out to my friends, planned on coming out to my parents once I had my first girlfriend [still not out], and that would be the end of it. NOPE. Right after coming out to the last friend, I started to like girls more than I did before. The months go by and my attractions to other girls grow while my attraction to males drops. At this point I can't see myself being 'in love' with a man, but I can't say that I would never date a guy again. Its weird. Every time I try to date a guy we have great conversations, and I always enjoy hanging out with him, but I just don't feel right calling them my boyfriend. Calling anyone my boyfriend seems weird to me. Girlfriend sounds so much better. ANYWAYS I'm starting to just not make sense (like any of this made sense, haha). If anyone has any input on this I'd be glad to hear it, anything would be helpful at this point. If you don't, then that's fine to I just really needed to say all of this
I used to think I was bi (identified as such for about four years), but I identify as a lesbian now. It's okay to change your mind. (*hug*)
