Hello, I have a whole jumble of words and stuff so sorry if this seems incoherent. Since I was a kid in middle school iv had an interest in some guys but not most guys, Idk id this will help provide a better advice solution but I also really like yaoi, and some gay porn too (sry if this sounds weird I'm not used to typing and I am not good at conveying what I mean ) . So I have considered myself bisexual but I have never really questioned it until today. This morning friend of mine who is bi confessed he had a crush on me (btw neither of us have relationship experience and I'm really not that good at social situations like this, I'm called a kid half the time because people call me "innocent and stuff like that) I said I would be lying if I said I wasn't interested at least a bit. I got really anxious/happy/good idk it's hard to describe. But an hour or so ago I thought , what if I'm not sexually attracted to him ? (It sounds stupid because I am attracted to some people guys irl and iv hung out with this guy a few times before but idk..) btw he is freshman in college but lives close to me and I'm senior in high school (just random info). Sry I'm having a hard time organizing my thoughts right now , and nobody I know besides him and a few online friends know I'm bi or bicurious or whatever I am sry I'll elaborate more if needed I need to sit and rest for a min before class. Also if it would help get a better grasp on me as a person ask me anything about my personality or stuff or life , I'm not very used to stuff like this and i think it would help (idk tho) the more you know someone the easier it is to gauge something like this.
By the way sry if this is so jumbled up, I kind of overthink things and say a lot. Although iv never done a post like this before I'm assuming that if you have any questions about me, to ask if it will help
Hi Radboy, You said you have considered yourself bisexual. Why? You only discussed your attraction to some but not most guys and liking some anime and gay porn. Do you have attraction to girls as well, or really just boys? By the way, no gay guy is attracted to all guys. Attraction doesn't work that way. Just as a straight guy isn't attracted to all girls, just some of them. You are at just the right age for you to experiment a bit and see where your attractions really are. Being nervous and anxious is totally normal. Aren't we all in new situations? As you gain experience, your confidence will grow as well. Give yourself a break, go slow, and you'll figure it out. This questioning is normal. I think, though, that if you put artificial restrictions on your attempts to figure this out, you may end up paralyzed and won't do anything. Give yourself the freedom to try some of both and I think you will know pretty soon where you're at.
Hi Radboy, I agree with Imgay47 - try and just let things happen. And just because your friend has a crush on you it doesn't mean you have to jump into a sexual relationship straight away. Start spending more time together and see just how much you enjoy being with him. You don't even need to say you're dating each other. And be honest with him and tell him what you've told us. Good luck and enjoy exploring who you are.
