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I like girls...but don't know whether I'm a lesbian or bisexual

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  1. starmotive

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    I'm 21, never been in any type of relationship. I recently came out to two of my friends, saying that I liked girls. I purposely didn't put a label to it because I don't know how I feel about guys.

    I've had crushes on male celebrities before, but never on anyone in real life. I'm attracted to them physically but I don't see myself ever being in a relationship with a man. I've watched gay porn, lesbian porn and straight porn before and enjoyed it all. I don't have any male friends, never really have now that I think about it. I find it a lot easier to relate to girls even though I've never been a girly girl - I'm more of a laid back hoodie and jeans low maintenance kind of person.

    I've always been really close with my female friends, sharing food and drinks as if we were family. But one thing on my mind is that whenever a female friend of mine and I hang out, my friend always insists on holding my hand/arm all day. While I've never said anything about it, there was always a part of me that was like 'what if people think we're together?' but it's never been a matter of me being homophobic - I have several lgbt friends and fully support them. I think it's more a matter of me not being able to accept the social repercussions that liking girls may have on my life?

    What I would like to know is:
    How do I know if I'm bisexual or lesbian? Can a lesbian have a crush on guys?
    Where do you draw the line between friends and something more?
    How do you become okay with 'being different'?
     
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    Have you completely decided that you're romantically interested in girls? I think the way to figure out the difference between if you think youre gay or bi is just to think about your interest in guys. Try to figure out if you have any sort of romantic interest in guys or if they dont interest you at all. Maybe test out this by going on a date with a guy or two.
    I'm not really sure about if lesbians can have crushes on guys. To me it kind of defeats the whole gay thing but everyone is free to choose whichever label they feel suits themself. I'm sure there are some gay women who periodically wonder about their interest in guys.
    I think its perfectly normal to link arms or hold hands with your female friends. I mean my friends and I always are linked or hugging or doing some sort of physical display of affection but none of us are actually romantically interested in each other. Unless it makes you uncomfortable I wouldnt worry about the physical contact with your friends. That sort of thing is generally viewed as normal with female friends.
    My advice to you on how to become okay with yourself is just for you to know that you cant change yourself and so whatever you end up deciding is perfectly okay. It takes a lot of confidence in yourself and the realization that you cant change other peoples opinions about yourself to get to the place in life where you are fully accepting of who you are.
    For most people figuring out who they are is not a quick process. Its been two years for me and I still dont have a label for myself. Just do whatever feels natural to you and what makes you live happy.
     
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    I've been thinking about it a lot, and I think that I spent the larger part of the past few years trying to repress my feelings for girls. I've finally come to accept that I have a romantic interest in girls. My conflict lies with whether or not I like guys as well.

    I've pictured myself in relationships with girls before but not with guys...but I don't really want to lead guys on by going on a date with them just to realize I don't like guys?

    Thanks for the advice :slight_smile:
     
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    Okay but like this is actually me?? I've been struggling with this exact question for years now, and I keep going back and forth deciding, I didn't date that much or really have any male friends either, but I slept with a guy a few times this April and even kissing was disgusting, but I've never been with a girl so I may not like that either, basically no clue what I am so I get you
     
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    It's nice to know I'm not alone :slight_smile:

    I dunno about you, but I've been doing a lot of thinking recently and I have never met a guy that I could connect with on an emotional level? Never had any guy friends either. That could be a clue that I'm a lesbian but at the same time??
     
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    Since you mention that you have some degree of physical attraction to guys it's possible you could be bisexual, but if at the end of the day if you're not really that into them it's probable that you're a lesbian.

    If you're not sure how you really feel there's no need to slap a label on your sexuality. There would be nothing wrong with just telling people that you're into girls and just leave it at that. Trying to label it, as much as some people may want to do, can make their sexuality a stressful and confusing aspect of their life.

    Just be you and do what makes you happy :slight_smile:
     
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    Yeah, I think that's what's been causing me a lot of anxiety and confusion lately. I thought that trying to put a label on it would make it easier to explain/come out to people but in the end it's just causing me a lot of distress...

    Thanks :slight_smile:
     
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    Don't worry about labelling yourself. It doesn't matter if you're lesbian or bisexual because either way you like girls and that's always a good thing!
     
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    i'm kinda like you! i never had a relationship and i had crushes on male celebrities (but know i realised it was just admiration) i can't imagine myself doing anything with them and i haven't felt sexual attraction to any guy in real life..also i never had any male friend (well just a gay one ) because i can't relate to them i just feel so uncomfortable..
    now to answer your question.. just do what feels right for you.. if you don't feel attracted to guys it's totally okay! to me bisexual means being attracted to men and women the same way.. or you can have a preference..anyway just think about what and who would make you happy.. :slight_smile:
     
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    I did and still do have a male celebrity crush on Nick Jonas and I don't think that will ever change. I honestly don't find men sexually attractive and that's been that way ever since I can remember but I still had crushes on them?? I have two best guy friends and yes, I did had a crush of them but nothing happened..

    I do have an interest towards girls and I really want to explore that. But, I live in GA so it's going to be hard finding girls that likes girls.. So I am on dating apps lol.

    I know that I am bisexual because I have romantic interest in guys but not sexually. And I have romantic interest in girls and sexually attracted to girls. So, I prefer girls more then guys.

    You can have preference. Hope this helped!
     
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    Try not to stress about labels. The more people you meet, the more apparent it will be to you. some people know directly what they want, some of us will take time to know for sure, some people change overtime too.
    So just enjoy! Be with people who make you laugh, meet new friends! Enjoy and have fun while you can!(but be responsible) :wink:

    Cheers!
     
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    Can someone explain what the difference between sexual and romantic attraction is? I think I've got them confused...like the line between them seems really blurry to me. Or maybe I'm just not understanding it properly :O