It all started when I was 12 when I went to middle school... most little middle schoolers would crush on a a cute boy... but me tho no..... I crushed big time on my English teacher and it was crazy..... I kept it a secret tho that year... at the end of 6th grade year I had to change schools and somehow I was very disappointed because I couldn't see that English teacher anymore but when I went to the new school I met my first girlfriend of 3 years she was my life... she meant the whole world to me.... she kept me smiling everyday and really I wanted her for the rest of my life.... the problem with it Is her parents dident accept her so we kept your relationship secret for most of the 3 years until one day her mom found out and almost snacked me with a pan.... not only that she also cheated on me twice.... so after that I decided I thought I hang out with my best friend who a guy and we decided to have sex and somehow I got into guys o.o . I dated different guys for the last 5 years and oddly I'm not so attracted to them..... but I was ok with the sex.....I would never get along with the guy tho and would break up within a few months or so . lol I was even watching lesbian porn while I was with them Just recently I broke up with my ex bf and I've been getting really attracted to women again..... I've been talking to this girl for a bit but after the break up she been showing affection and she making me go hard wired over her it crazy.... I just can't seem to keep my hands off myself over her..... it so odd I never get this way..... prob haven't been this way since middle school pretty much with my ex... and I'm losing almost full interest for men..... but somehow I dated them back then.... I'm confused.... My grandmother before she passed away told me that she knew I was lesbian even tho I had a bf at the time and I'm like hmmmm ok.... dident think anything about it..... until now....... Could my grandmother be right and the fact I'm a lesbian?!?! Or I'm I bi....
Well, if you are attracted to men and women then you are bi. If you're only attracted to women that would mean you are a lesbian. So were these guys you dated/had sex with not attractive to you? Why did you have sex with them?
When I was younger I thought I was a lesbian maybe bcs that was the only term I understood. I didn't realize there were so many spectrums until I joined EC actually. In my fantasies, I used to want to be the man in the relationship at 8, then slowly I as ok with being a woman with a gf during my teens, so until now I fantasize mostly about women, rarely men. But I discovered along the course of interacting with friends and acquaintances that I am capable of being attracted for any gender.
I am in the same boat as you. My whole like I have enjoyed women, but pretty much labeled myself as bi-sexual. I think I am starting to realize I never really liked men - it was all "programmed" into me from society. A woman has to like a man and marry a man and have a house and have kids. I am just now realizing that this whole time I think I am actually a lesbian. I've been "flirting" with the idea of being bisexual. It is a bit overwhelming.
