Can't tell if it's a gay phase, if I'm confused or if I'm bi

I've probably been sexually attracted to men and struggling with the attraction since I was in Year 9 (I'm in year 11 now). I always remember gay things on television and such making me feel weirded out and disgusted (and I know for sure I wasn't forcing this). But I would still be attracted to men and recently I feel as if this gay stuff isn't as disgusting to me which is quite confusing. I am still attracted to girls romantically and sexually. And I always have fantasies about being intimate with this girl I have a crush on. And I just love looking at pictures of her on social media. I however, can't see myself dating men and being romantically intimate with them and would prefer thinking about girls when it comes to this. I have fantasies about men and being romantically involved with them but I normally force these and try and test if I'm gay.

I also do countless of gay tests if I find a men attractive and Evey time I find a man attractive (sexually) I would feel quite sad and depressed at this. In fact I have tried forcing myself to accept being bi and purposely checking out men and indulging my thoughts all the time but that also just felt weird and forced. That is just a brief run down but is there a way this may be a phase or am I indenial about being gay or bi. Should I also stop doing this gay testing and stop checking out men, cause I honestly feel a lot better and not sad when not checking out men. I have been obsessing over my sexuality for a while and would just like it to stop.

 

Ah okay I'm probably just going to stop doing that then. The other problem however is the fact that I am aroused by gay porn and stuff, to the point of masturbation and whilst masturbating it does feel enjoyable but also weird at the same time and I feel disgusted and sad afterwards. Don't get me wrong I do enjoy masturbating over girls and stuff but I'm just really confused by getting aroused by men and gay stuff.

I've also noticed that I notice men in public much more than girls but then again I have this obsession of my sexuality going through my head all the time. It just confused me