Hello all! I am a 23 year old female. I have been watching lesbian porn since I was old enough to get my hands on a computer (8 or 9.) I would watch it excessively and could not wait to get home from school to watch it. Sometimes I would masturbate without it in my room, and picture my female school teachers naked. I also at the same time, had crushes on boys. I would point out the handsome actors in movies and beautiful actresses in movies as well. Whenever I had a female best friend, I would sometimes feel amorous beyond the normal friendship point, but I knew how to suppress it and play it off. at 16 years old I would catch feelings for many guys. I had friends that were girls but they were all closeted bisexuals. I would sometimes playfully flirt with them (scissor in a playful way and laugh) and did not think much of it. At night time, I would be in lesbian webcam rooms flirting until they finally took their clothes off. Every good lesbian porn I would watch, I would save to my downloads. But come morning time I would talk with my girlfriends about the hot guys we got over the weekend. At 17 years old, my mom saw my phone and all the porn I have been hoarding. She forced me to see priests, go to youth group at church, and be prayed on excessively. I felt like they were acting as if some demon was in me! Then I became a promiscuous straight woman. I still liked girls! I do not act on it because I have been taught not to. I feel suppressed and deprived and like I have been stripped of my rights. What am I? sorry for long story. I appreciate anyone who read all this and is taking the time to comment. Thank you(&&&)
I think you have answered your own question here. You sound very much bisexual! I'm sorry that you're mom acted like that, hopefully she will come around
Agree wit Pandagurl....I never had those feelings for guys. I could tell when a guy was attractive...but it ended there. I had no further interest beyond that. The hoarding of porn...I am not sure if that was why she was sending you to church or if it was because you were showing a liking toward females. It could have been a combination as well. I think you already know what your sexuality is... you just meeting resistance from some people around you.
The question is how did you feel about those straight experiences? Did the earth move? Or were you grossed out? Did you feel butterflies while kissing? Or did you have to fantasize about girls to get off? If you were Yes No Yes No, then you might well be bisexual. If No Yes No Yes, you were a gay girl going through the motions. Are you completely straight? No.
It's difficult when someone so close to you tells you that you're wrong for what you are feeling. Regardless of your mother's beliefs, it's your life. Your relationships.Your happiness. You aren't wrong for feeling attracted to anyone over the legal age of consent, you know that still and we all know that too. If you were straight, you wouldn't have been so drawn to girls, lesbian porn and lesbian relationships for so much of your life and definitely not at such a young age either.
