im so confused I fell in love with a man. but i have always had this sexual urge for woman. i use to think about them all the time and it took me a long time to find a guy sexually attractive. ive dated girls but i felt disgusted with myself and never loved them.
So.. what is your question to us, exactly? Are you genuinely sexually attracted to this man you say you love, or to any man for that matter? Or are you trying to force yourself to be? You seem to definitely be attracted to women since you have sexual urges for them. The reason why you never loved girls is probably because the disgust you feel about your sexuality is holding you back.
