This'll probably be really long. Or I'll try make it sorted and cut out random probably-not-important-but-you-never-know details. So either way, sorry. Gender isn't really relevant to me, so I'm pretty much ignoring it atm. I'ma just go on about my sexuality, and so and so. RIGHT. For most of my life I haven't given two birds about what I'm attracted to, always just assuming straight. Maybe bi. Certainly not full on gay. But a few months ago I started getting interested, figured I don't want to be go through life without a single relationship, so I could at least figure out what I'm attracted to. Easy enough, yeah? Nah. I've had crushes on boys, usually ones I dismiss instantly but they continue to haunt me, and although I like looking at girls, I've never had a crush on one. I think. Not really sure. 'Cause boobs are pretty cool. Can't deny it, lmao. (Whew! First time I've admitted to this!) So I like looking at both girls and boys, some boys I've had crushes on, girls not so much. But I can't see myself having an actual sexual relationship with anyone. Romantic? Eh. Dunno. I just like talking with people. Not sure if that means we can't just be friends. Maybe I just haven't found the right person, maybe I'm just too shy... Let me put it out there that I don't think I'm the type of girl to not like sex (be nice though; obviously I'm a virgin, and of course it's a ridiculous claim to make. It's my brain's way of denying that I like porn.) So, because of that there's a part of me that thinks asexual. Another part that thinks demisexual. Another that thinks pan/poly/omni. On randomized chat rooms I call myself queer at the least, pan if I'm feeling charismatic. I think my family suspects something, and I haven't exactly been hiding anything. Little jokes. So, yeah! Really confusing right now. If you have advice/stories/ideas/explanations, you can bet your arse I'll listen.
