Hey everyone! I'm an 18 year old Muslim girl living in a conservative Muslim country. I always thought I was straight but over the past few months I've been attracted to girls. This started after I started nofap and since then I've felt this intense attraction for them. I used to sext with both boys and girls and I enjoyed it but I didn't really pay much attention to girls back then. At first I was bicurious but now I just really want to be in a relationship with a girl. I know girls do experiment but most of them wouldn't actually want a relationship, I feel weird because I want something more romantic. I don't really care much for sex but I feel like I'd be more comfortable with a girl, maybe because I have interacted way more with girls. Porn doesn't do much for me and I don't feel comfortable with nudity. I haven't ever been in a relationship with either gender or done anything and doing anything with anyone is risky for me. I know I'm definitely into girls but I don't know if this is a phase or if I'm bi and I don't know where I stand on guys.
I know how you feel. I myself am in a pretty religious circle (albeit a Jewish one) am not sure if it's a phase or what. I guess only time and experimentation will tell, no? Well, I hope you figure it out and are comfortable with whatever it is, lesbian, bi, straight... the list goes on. Good luck, and welcome to empty closets!
I also know how you feel, my step dad follows the bible to the literal word, he would hang me if he could. I do hope you figure out, Experimenting is a easy way to find out and is how I found out and don't worry, just try to forget what other people would say and be yourself.
Thank you and I hope you figure it out too. You're right. Being in a homophobic environment certainly complicates things because you can't get over that guilt let alone explore your feelings. ---------- Post added 24th Dec 2016 at 01:08 PM ---------- Thank you, I hope you can come out to your stepdad and he accepts you. It's very important for us to feel safe enough to open up to our families.
