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Gay,Straight,Denial

Discussion in 'Sexual Orientation' started by DatDude, Jan 11, 2017.

  1. DatDude

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    Sorry Long Post
    The answer to this could be really obvious to an outsider looking in but to me at this point trying to get a conclusion is like trying to read Chinese

    Right so I'm 23, and currently going through a shit aul period.
    I'm currently at a place where I think I could be gay, but am confident I'm not, but that confidence has me thinking it could be denial It's worse than inception Imma gonna tell the story from the off and hopefully some people can give there opinion.

    Start at 12 really hit puberty, discovered porn entry level really lesbians kissing etc. Had various girlfriends throughout my teens no bother there, poem slowly escalated noting too alarming until I found women performing anal on men then. The long road began , ventured deeper into porn. Got a girlfriend at 18 lived with her for two years was great it ended badly I was crushed went deeper into porn started experimenting with anal liked it it's something we had messed around with hadn't been with many girls since her possibly 2 one night stands up till 2016 pretty deep in porn now I'm surfing Craigslist looking at ads for general arousal got into more porn styles next then I quit porn for an extended 5 month period got with a few girls .

    Around October I got back into porn then thoughts of wanting to perform oral on men came about. It was never an constant thought or about a particular person so I found my self wanting to try surfing Craigslist never did downloaded an app made an account couldn't bring myself to actively message or reply to message so noting came of it.


    Brings me too now, I've never before 23 had those thoughts, I've never actually seen a man who was attractive to me real or celeb I've always felt a physical or emotional attachment to females it's not a problem that actively haunts me generally just when I'm watching porn.

    I'm at a point where it knowing if I'm straight or gay is killing me tbh either wY I just wanna know I guess I'm terrified il never love a women again I'm not afraid of being gay I just wanna know so either way I can move on in life if you get me

    Sorry for all the text
     
  2. meistro

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    well, first off it's not uncommon to become gay later in life, second off, why don't you step back from everything and forget the labels and ask yourself how you really feel. Try to put everything out of your mind that you've been told/taught about hetero, homo, trans or whatever and just go with how you feel. It really sounds like your bi curious...maybe try dating another guy. Beware of craigslist, it can be very dangerous meeting people on there. I'm not gonna lie, I've done but I don't recommend it. If you know your going to, meet in a public place like mcdonalds, get something to eat and talk to him for a bit...if you get a bad feeling GET OUTTA THERE, and I mean it