I've been so confused for a long time now. For a good while I felt that I knew for sure I was straight after having a long obsessive battle with maybe even being bi. None of it would bother me if I was gay. I would except it if I felt sure but I don't. I feel I can go a long with it but then something doesn't sit right. It's not guilt, I just feel it isn't who I truly am. When I am out and about my eyes are towards women. I can look at say a shirtless guy and think nothing of it. It does not do anything for me. But sometimes I actually get a boner from thinking of a shirtless man. I also do get boners from women though not all the time. I'm 27 and have never even been on a date. I'm really shy so I don't talk to many people. Most of the time the thought of being romantic with a woman can get me going but I don't always get erections. My fantasies have been so random lately they switch back and forth. Sometimes fantasies with men give me a firm erection and stay erect for awhile but then I can look at a picture and it almost feels forced and a lot of the time I don't get one at all. I can get one with women at times too but a lot of the time it's like they get weaker. I just don't know what to think of anymore. Bisexual? I don't know. Growing up I was always pulled towards women and I still am. I'm just so confused and it's driving me nuts.
