HEY okay when I was growing up I had no attraction to men or anything and then when I was in 8th grade I watched gay porn and it turned me off completely. Then a few years down the road I was wearing skinny jeans and enjoyed tight underwear but still had a thing for women. Then my senior year of high school out of nowhere if I did not masturbate for a week or two I would get as hard as a rock looking at men either half naked or engaging in homosexual activities (oral,anal) and it confused me because after I finished masturbating to it I would be repulsive too anything doing with man on man but could still be attracted to girls. Then I started dating a girl and had intercourse with her 20 or so times and would have trouble staying hard so now I am questioning one if I am actually attracted to just males and two why do I get so turned off after masturbation to gay porn. I don't care what I am but I wish my mind could make a decision thanks guys (!)
Porn isn't a good indicator of sexual orientation. Lots of people like porn that doesn't align with what they like or who they are attracted to in real life. Whether or not you can keep an erection isn't a good indicator either, because there are a lot of different factors that can contribute to that. When you look at men (in real life), do you think they're hot? Want to kiss them? How about with women? That's what'll answer your question and determine your sexuality.
You could be straight but also aroused by gay porn. You're probably so turned off after because you are disgusted with yourself because you think it is shameful. That taboo aspect could also contribute to why you are so turned on by it in the first place. But you could also be bi, who knows?
Agreed here...but to the OP, it's worth noting that "you are disgusted with yourself because you think it is shameful" isn't always even the issue, at the conscious level. These feelings are taught to us by society at a *deep*, subconscious level. So you may rationally say "no, I have no problem with gay people at all! I'm not disgusted by homosexuals or homosexuality!" ...but still have that deep emotional reaction to your *own* homosexual interests. It's worth recognizing that we can feel shame simply because *we think society generally finds us disgusting*, even if we know and accept rationally/intellectually that there is nothing wrong with us. There can be quite an unwinding process.
