So this might seem really strange, but I just had to share this revelation. Lately I've still felt like I'm conflicted over who or what I'm attracted to. I still feel like there's some attraction to women, but not very much. More in the face and the personality I guess. And while half the time I've thought the idea of being with a guy would be amazing, the other half of the time I get this weird sense like that's not how it's gonna be. So I decided to put myself to a test, just randomly; what does my boner think? Now keep in mind, for the better part of a decade + a few years, I've considered boobs to be an immediate turn-on. I just go rock-hard. I thought about them a lot, girls at my school would walk by and I'd have to re-adjust my pants, and in the privacy of my room, I would look up art and photos and videos. Boobs, boobs, boobs. That's all it ever was for me. But this time, I tried to look at a lot of the same pictures I always enjoyed looking at, and not a single... thing... happened. Not even a twitch. Then, I opened up my newest image folder, filled with sexy guy artwork and male furries. And once I got an eye-full of those male appendages, BINGO, standing ovation! And not only that, I am now getting hot and heavy over side ribs, toned thighs, muscular arms, goatees, even chest hair (What?!), like I really love chest hair for some reason. I know I still want a certain level of softness and femininity in a guy. But women just don't seem to do it anymore. And that's a big revelation to have. Cause I've been noticing a strange and dramatic drop in daily hard-ons, since I used to get them constantly. But maybe I'll start day-dreaming about guys soon enough, and the boners will return. Who knows? For me, there's no other more definitive proof. I am most definitely Gay now. And I could not be happier to have this sort of confirmation.
This sounds very familiar, gay here too btw. I'm a bit older than you but have felt exactly the same way, I didn't come out until well into my late twenties and before then spent a lot of time focusing on the ladies. I've only ever had one real relationship with a women when I was 18. I spent the entire 18 months avoiding sexual contact but never thought to question that as odd. That combined with the fact that the girl in question was quite masculine in some respects. Looking back at the relationship I can only describe it as a fancy friendship. I then spent the next 8 years spending a lot of time with escorts. I can see this now as an attempt to convince myself that I was straight. Anyway after several visits I decided to begin evaluating who I was. I was never bothered with the dating habits of straight people, I just couln't be bothered. Then I began thinking maybe I could be gay, and after some experimentation decided yeah this is for me but I still find myself admiring the fairer sex. This is completely normal I have been assured. Just because you seek a relationship with men doesn't mean you can't appreciate attractiveness. I suppose porn has a negative effect on this as the female form is so widely presented in it's most suggestive state. The whole drop in raging boners is associated with age. The older you get the less receptive you get to sexual stimulus. I used to remember the bus ride to school and the slightest vibration when we stopped at each bus stop would provoke a semi. Now I can have the worlds most powerful vibrator buzzing away down there and not the slightest bit of hardness could be detected. So in summary loss of sexual appetite is normal and your preferences change. Completely normal and nothing to worry about. A bit of advice try to cut down on the porn it can seriously mess you up. Good luck
I was always worried that the porn would mess me up. And to an extent, I think it only ever did in perhaps requiring me to watch it to get any strong reaction down there to actually reach orgasm without a lot of concerted effort. Because if I have to try too hard to masturbate, that's more dangerous. But I don't think the porn ever distorted my view of sex or expectations of real people. I'm far more into cuddling and making-out anyway. I do find it a bit distressing that my change in orientation has led to less boners, mainly because I feel like it's now more uncomfortable to have one when I'm so frequently soft now. I'm sure the frequency of them drops off with age for anyone, but I never expected to be such a sharp drop-off at any point in my life. But I think that's due mostly to my mind still be visually fixated on women to the point that I'm still thinking about them as if that's supposed to arouse me like it used to. But, if my brain can ever readjust to think about men, then I could return to business as usual, at least to a degree. Thanks for replying, by the way.
