I would appreciate some feedback on my post. Here it goes: Lately I've been feeling less interested in pursuing/leaning towards having some feelings towards being in a romantic or sexual relationship with guys fitting my own preferences(I've talked about this on a couple of old posts here). I feel that happened when I stopped worrying about my friend whom I had a variety of platonic/romantic/sexual feelings over from last year. This friend had fit a preference I preferred: 20-something, preppy, and white. The feelings over pursuing a relationship with a guy seemed to go down the drain when I stopped worrying about him as I noticed. I feel leaning towards having a sexual/romantic relationship with a woman. Despite leaning towards women, I still feel that I'm not 100% straight. Why? I've had some mild sexual encounters with guys that happened last year, the past two friendships with two male friends that I had romantic and sexual fantasies over, and lastly, I never had sex with a female before in my life. There were two times in my life when sex with a female almost had happened. I feel conflicted about "doing the right thing" of having a romantic/sexual relationship with a female and having a family versus figuring out my sexuality a little more and having sexual and romantic relationships with males and females, but I don't want to appear as promiscuous.
I don't think you should pressure yourself to settle and have a family if you're not ready for it; figuring out your sexuality and having a family are things that can both happen. I don't know if this is an option for you, but I'm non-monogamous. I don't know what you were taught but I was taught you can date more than one person at a time unless you negotiate an exclusive relationship. Promiscuity is something that is associated with cheating, in my opinion. You can have meaningful, sexual relationships with more than one person--you just have to communicate and make sure your intentions are clear. For instance, I'm not comfortable with physical intimacy. I have a girlfriend, but our relationship is open--she has FWB relationships that I'm not a part of, and I have an outside boyfriend that she isn't dating. We are both aware and consenting to each other having partners outside the two of us.
