I've posted on this forum many times but it's got to a point where I seriously need help and shed light on this situation. I am really really confused to whether I am gay or straight. So here goes, I've just gone 18 and it was til a year ago hat I started debating this situation. This was around the time I broke up with my girlfriend of 9 months. I lost all feelings of attraction to her and I didn't know why? I thought that I loved her. This situation made me question my sexuality and that maybe I might be gay. I don't find men or women attractive (not sure if this is because I keep telling myself this) but I do found gay porn Arousing. I have never been or got with a male but I have always had females. I have been sexually attracted to women and done sexual acts with them. I have never thought about getting with a male. However, when I'm with a girl - say in bed - I will get an erection etc. I have also been diagnosed with general anxiety disorder and OCD. I just need answers. Am I gay or is this arousal to men due to it being something different if you get me?
Porn is always a bad indicator. It offers a kind of visual/sexual 'release' but it doesn't accurately reflect our deepest inclinations. A better way to understand how you feel about men is to consider your thoughts and fantasies when you masturbate. Do men figure then? Losing attraction to your girlfriend could be due to any number of issues and you shouldn't immediately jump to the conclusion that you are gay. A number of pieces of a jigsaw need fitting into place before you can say that. The anxiety and OCD could be significant in all of this questioning and you should bear that in mind, but that's not to say that you have some specific form of OCD that is connected to sexuality. It's a general anxiety disorder that you have and this isn't helping, but there are sure to be other, unrelated issues too.
