I feel like I've gone from identifying as bisexual to questioning my sexuality. I felt as though I was bisexual(felt conscience that I was) from about late 2015 to about last month. And I felt this confusion about my sexuality from late 2014/2015(I've talked about this on some older posts if anyone cares to read them). I mean last year from the Winter to Spring I had had some hook ups with guys and had some mild sexual encounters. When I mean mild it was just I received handjobs nothing else happened. But I appear to shift myself from identifying as bisexual when I get involved with an evangelical church group at my college and felt "less bi" in a sense. I feel involved in it but I feel as though that if I acted on hooking up with a guy, it would be "wrong" for me to do it. Granted, I don't feel 100% "straight" or 100% gay I feel in somewhere but cannot properly define myself. I've struggled with my sexuality for a while just cannot find how to go about it. I don't see myself as gay because I have had fantasies over women I have crushes over. I don't see myself as 100% straight because I have had dreams or fantasies of close male friends I had some inkling of liking and sometimes I see a guy that "fits" my preference. I feel as I'm not gay or straight, maybe bi or maybe something within a lesser bi spectrum. I don't know.
