Warning: this is going to be a bit disorganized. I'll try and write more coherent text sometime soon, but know that if I don't write anything now it'll never happen. Anyway, I used to think I was gay, but am probably bi. I've only had sex with a trans man I met before they transitioned (the relationship is not romantic, we're friends). I've had crushes on men, and not really on women, but I seem to be more easily attracted to women visually. I masturbate daily to straight porn. Gay porn mostly turns me off. I don't quite know why. The closest I come to is watching those "your bi fantasy" type of things, but they tend to just feel weird. All this adds up to confusion. I can't seem to act out my homosexual feelings in any way, which kinda makes me sceptical if they exist. Having sex with the friend might mix things up as well. I'm not saying they're not a man, but it still doesn't seem like straightforwardly gay (or straight for that matter) sex. So I'm a bit of a mess. The main question here is if it makes sense to abstain from sex/masturbation to clear up my thoughts and feelings? It kinda seems to make sense, but I'm not sure. (I tried to send this message once already, but it seems to have disappeared. Apologies if this is a duplicate.)
