Hi, I'm a 14 year old girl in the US and I think I'm bisexual. When I was little, I always had crushes on guys but.. I think I also liked girls. When I was little, I jerked off to A LOT of lesbian porn (it's still the only porn I watch excluding yaoi). Lately I've been feeling like I've been even more attracted to girls. I remember a few months ago I saw this girl and our eyes met and it felt like my heart just stopped for a second because of how hot she looked (she was way out of me league tho). When I was little and I always googled searched boobs and shit, I always made excuses in my head saying "I'm just discovering the human body" but was i really? later in my years I totally blocked out that part of my life and recently remembered it and started to think about what I was doing back then. I think I'm bisexual but I'm not sure... plus my sister is pan/lesbian (not sure yet) and I don't want my mom thinking I'm copying her because I'm not at all. I never even knew my sister was pan before I started thinking women were hot af. I'm just scared. I'm really scared. And I don't know what to do.
Hey why are you scared? Being bisexual, to come out? Is there a youth LGBT center nearby where you can get help and guidance? Why do you think your mom think you are copying your sister? It will be easier to help whit those answers, if you seek it.
Forgem, it's okay at 14 years old to not have this all figured out. No one expects you to yet. You are still a kid. Just enjoy being a kid and don't worry so much about what your specific sexual orientation is. You may be straight, bi, or lesbian, but you have so much time to figure that out. I really would urge you, however, to not rely on pornography to work out these feelings. Pornography does not clarify things; it only complicates them. It's not helping you figure out your sexuality, but it's rather hindering it. I don't even think adults should rely on pornography, but plenty of studies have shown that regular exposure to it can have very detrimental effects on teenagers your age. So I say leave the porn alone, slow down and enjoy life, and understand that you don't have to figure this all out yet. And when you do, your mom and your sister will be there to love you just as they always have.
