So I'm a 17 year old guy, in high school (a junior), and i've never been in a relationship before, or even had my first kiss yet. Since like 8th grade maybe a little earlier i started getting these feelings towards other guys and noticing their looks and what not, and I also became really attracted to my best friend because of the fact that we were always hanging out and having sleep-overs and stuff. But along with all that i had thought i'd always been attracted to girls, wanted to get a girlfriend, a wife and kids and all that but than those other feelings id get towards guys always messed with my head and i didn't know what to think. As of right now I think a lot more about being with other guys, involving relationships, sex, and living together and stuff like that but than id remember how i did and kind of do still feel about girls. Anytime i watch porn its mainly gay stuff, but i still like to watch porn with women in them sometimes. I honestly like the idea of being gay, it just seems like it might be right for me and it would be exciting to be with another man. But at the though of coming out to other people and trying to explain myself just scares the hell out of me.
Sounds to me like you may be bi, it all depends on how strongly you feel about girls and the whole wife-kids thing. However, this is how I felt when I started realizing I was gay. Like I said, it all depends on your feelings towards girls.
Well, I think it's at least obvious you aren't straight. Do you have a sexual attraction to girls? If so, you're most likely bisexual. If it's purely towards men, you're gay. It seems like you've already accepted yourself, so that's good!
I don't know, my thought process is weird lol. I'd like to have kids some day but i cant picture myself having a wife
Hmmm... I think there's a lot of us who pictured ourselves getting married, having kids etc... In fact, I'm one of those who did and to a certain extend still does. I also sometimes picture myself winning American Idol and having millions of fans throwing themselves at my feet... Fantasies... Great to have them but they tend to stay what they are, fantasies. To become Americas next idol I think it would help if I could sing and then maybe live in the good old USA??? Likewise, getting married to a girl and having kids with her would require actually being attracted to women... Just a small technicality...:icon_wink Maybe it's time to change the fantasy a little, replace the wife with a nice guy and a bunch of adopted kids???
