I have watched a lot of porn since 11 all kinds. When I mastrubate and get off to gay porn I regret it and feel disgusted but when to girls after im done I just want to hug and kiss them. But within 30 minutes I can do it again
Heteroromantic bisexual Unless you have some kind of sub conscience hate about your homoromantic side.
It sounds like you just haven't accepted your interest in men, but I can't be sure. I would work on trying to accept that part of yourself. Men are certainly worthy of love and respect, and if you have the capacity to feel that way for them, I would embrace it. Nothing wrong with bisexuality.
Please don't make definitive statements about someone's sexual orientation, particularly based on one post. It is not our place to ever tell anyone what their orientation is, and in this case, the OP hasn't given anywhere near enough information to make any sort of informed inference, so to indicate otherwise is simply irresponsible. To the OP: The answer to your question is a complex one that isn't easily answered, and porn, while it can be one indicator, is not definitive. Sexual orientation is, for most, a spectrum rather than a binary. Furthermore, if you are still in your mid-teens, and just grappling with your sexuality, your unconscious attractions can be in conflict with your conscious desires (i.e., no one wants to be gay, so our minds play tricks on us.) One of the best things you can do is pay attention not to what happens after you ejaculate, but what you're feeling when you're masturbating The guilt and feelings afterwards are in part a hardwired response, so they aren't going to be terribly helpful in figuring out your orientation. So... when you're watching gay porn, compare how aroused/excited/into it you are, vs when you're watching straight porn. Also, when watching straight porn, pay attention to whether you're looking more at the guy or at the girl. Watching lesbian porn (which 95% of is made for straight men) can be a pretty reliable indicator of how much sexual attraction you have for women. Another step is to masturbate without any porn, just using your mind and internal fantasies, and see where your mind takes you. If you find yourself thinking equally about guys and girls, then likely you have attractions to both. If it's more one or the other... that, too, points you somewhere. The problem with the revulsion you feel after ejaculating is, as soon as we finish orgasm, our body basically sends a signal to shut off sexual interest. (In earlier times, without this, people would never stop having sex, so it was a necessary thing.) And add to that, the fear that you might be gay (presuming that is something you'd rather not be) and your unconscious can play all sorts of games with you to try and convince you that it's wrong. So... try out some of the above, if you're so inclined, and let us know the outcome, and that may help paint a clearer picture. Also, I suggest not getting caught up in some of the terminology (heteroromantic/homoromantic/etc) as that often does nothing more than confuse the issue.
