Hey, I'm a 20 year old female, and I'm questioning which gender I'm most attracted to. Or, if I'm completely pansexual. I've had one boyfriend, we were together for almost three years before I called it off but it was mutual. I just wasn't attracted to him at all. I think it was the person, but I haven't had any other experience. Now, I find that I get turned on to porn, whether it be gay, straight or lesbian. I haven't seen much beside those three... but when it comes to lesbian porn, I usually am most attracted to the seduction ones; where a girl is discovering her sexuality. Even on here I was looking at the members list and I find that I go past a lot of the guy names... is it because I'm not attracted to the guys or is it just that I'm more comfortable being friends with girls? I don't know. I've also always gone with the "girls are just as good as guys - if not BETTER" mentality, which I regret because I think all sexes are equal. I think that's turned me off of guys in some respect. I was homeschooled and didn't have the opportunity to be exposed to a high school setting and my social life has never been great. I work at a health club as a swim teacher and lifeguard, and everyone I work with is either older or younger than myself. Any thoughts? Or similar stories and what you've done? I don't think I'll necessarily figure myself out, but it's nice to have a place where I can express my thoughts and see what others think.
Hi Hopeful, I think you'll find that due to your homeschooling maybe it has stunted relationships with both sexes...I mean, give yourself time, do activities or get involved in some kind of club that involves both sexes roughly the same age...It could just be that these connections take some time to develop, especially if you've had limited contact with them. You are only 20 and you dont have to be attracted to every guy...when it happens it happens, the same kind of person you're attracted to at 17-20 vs mid twenties will become very different..give yourself a chance- also try to explore how your relationship with your parents is, is one weaker/stronger? etc...go back to basics and begin to rebuild, forgive, find trust again in both sexes, seek therapy, seek God...it takes work but its worth it..try to focus on relationships with people first, before the act of sex etc...I hope this helps...
